Da Nang

A quick review :

Last month I and my colleague went to Da Nang, Vietnam for kick-off meeting. The cleanliness in Da Nang is way more better compared to the other parts of Thailand. Kudos *clap clap. The place is quite similar with Malacca the historical place the walk way like our Jonker Walk. The food is hmm so so because not everything we can eat. Not everything is halal tho. So literally I just ate the bread, vegetables and seafood. But the most thing I like about Da Nang is their spa. I went to the street spa which cost me only 120,000 vietnamese dong for full body massage. Its fucking cheap and of course you cannot expect all the high class treatment but still cheap cheap cheap. All the stuffs there is godddd veryyyyy cheappppp yknow. I bought things for eveyone the souvenir the cliche thing people bring back after travel, fridge magnet haha. and the most thing that I feel very happy to bring home is rattan bag. Because I love to collect unique things if I go travel. and it only cost me 540,000 Vietnamese dong for two rattan handbag.  

240,000 Vietnamese dong

300,000 Vietnamese dong 

So, overall Da Nang was good but I dont think so to go there again to travel. 

Till we meet again. daaa

Engagement Day (7 May 2018)

Alhamdulillah, 

Cukup setahun bergelar tunangan orang.

Menghapus Senja

Biarkan aku mengecap satu rasa dari segala kenang yang tinggal genang di celung matamu.
Aku sudah berjanji padamu untuk pergi.
Aku datang untuk menepati.
Bagiku, langit telah mati.
Mungkin juga denganmu—sampan yang telah kusiapkan untuk kita dayung bersama menuju tengah samudra.
Menanti senja, seperti yang telah dikabar angin ke peraduanmu sedari lama—

ketika masih ada kata “kita”.

Dulu

Dulu, aku mengacuhkanmu
Kini aku memperhatikanmu

Dulu, aku lupa namamu
Kini, namamu ada di hatiku

Dulu, tak pernah ada rindu
Kini, rindu selalu menggebu

Dulu, kamu adalah angin lalu
Kini, aku memperjuangkanmu

Dulu, kamu adalah temanku
Esok, kamu adalah teman hidupku

InsyaAllah

Yang bukan untuk aku

Untuk semua, yang bukan untuk aku.


Dari pelukmu, dadaku berbuah luka.
Rayuanmu yang berduri menancap mesra,
meninggalkan lubang yang hanya cukup untuk aku mati seorang diri.

Dari pergimu, kakiku membatu dan keras kepala.
Kau telah mengikat langkahku untuk tidak berjalan selain ke arahmu.
Dan kau malah pulang kepada yang bukan aku.

Dari bibirmu, lidahku menelan semua omong kosong.
Melumat semua rayuan yang ludahkan.
Aku hanya bisa mati tersedak,  saat kau menyenandungkan sebuah nama yang bukan aku, di ujung janjimu.

Aku terima,
Semua kasih darimu,
yang bukan untuk aku.

Stabilitasi

Pada kamu yang tiba-tiba tiba
Yang membuat gaduh otak dan rasa
Yang menghancurkan susunan rasional di kepala
Yang mengubah paradigma
Yang menempelkan stigma
Yang mempercepat debaran di dada
Yang menyebabkan pipi merah merona
Yang kerap berjalan melalang buana
Yang ada dan seketika tiada

Tahukah kamu adalah alasan utama aku tiba-tiba gila?

Fvck you, just go

I’m not sure if you still remember me, but let me introduce myself again to you. We used to love each other before. You used to trace my spine and lighten up my world with your smile. We were perfect back then, but everything was ruined. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to win you back. I just want to exhaust the remaining things about you, inside.

You know what, I still hate you after all those years. It’s been seven years, to be exact. And every single day, I hate your existence. When there’s a time that I reminisce our past, it makes me feel sick. I don’t know what made me fell in love with you in the first place and how everything went from good to worse. You were the worst thing that ever happened to me.

I hate you for being so selfish and you let me win every argument. You ignored me and let me sunk with my own feelings. You didn’t hold my hand and stop me from leaving for that night. You just let me walk away and made me feel that you never loved me. You think only about your happiness, you never paid attention to my details. You never asked if I’m still happy, you think only about yourself.

I hate you for painting my world with your colors and made me used to love them. And now you were gone, it makes me insane because I see them every day. I tried to hide everything through smiles, but my eyes never stopped bleeding them. There’s no way I could escape because you planted flowers inside my chest and it continues to breathe your stupid name. I couldn’t breathe on my own.

I hate you for making me believe in your promises that you will stay, no matter what happens.

I hate you for being a part of my life, for scarring my heart with your love. You build walls around me with your kindest words and now that you were in love with someone else, I don’t know how to climb up, explore the world and start all over again. I’m afraid to jump on my own because you made me believe that fear won’t exist if you were here. I’m still afraid.

I hate you for making me in love with your favorite song. After seven years, it’s still playing in my head.

I hate you, let me move on.